There you have it... I'm starting something fresh...I've been out of action for a while. I hope I can still do this right.
A lot of things have happened within the past several days. There were some bummers, but of course, there were some "number ones". (Bummers and number ones are two of the expressions I've picked up from the war novels that I've read. )
I thought everything between us would just expire from the face of the earth. I tried to keep myself busy, though to my disappointment, I found myself thinking of her.
I eventually got myself together and started to patch things up. With minimal success, I still lack the things that would make the ball rolling.
She's almost within my grasp again...due to the damage that I have experienced (which is of course my own fault to begin with) I began to reflect and learned that if I put faith and willpower in one bottle it'll be a potent combination, giving me opportunities and a lot of open doors.
There's just one more thing that I need to work on...and that is CONSISTENCY.
Without it I would just be another lonely person succumbing to sorrow and grief. I would eventually lose my sanity and throw everthing away.
Being with her (oh yeah, there were some time spent away from her as well) has taught me a lot of things...one sad fact is that I have encountered most of those things already and I never learned from it.
I'm feel good about the path that I'm taking right now. Hopefully I would see her in the crossroads again. If things go well, who knows, we might end up walking along the same path.
I want to hold her hand again...see her radiant smile...stroke her jet-black hair. It's only a matter of time.
There you have it folks...curtains fall.
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